I feel like I’m disappearing. Any identity I once had is gone and I’m left not knowing who I am or how to restore the strong person I once was. It’s like I’ve given up. I fought for so much of my life pre-illnesses that now dealing with this nightmare of illnesses is too much for my brain and emotions to handle. I wish I could be that optimist that realizes a positive attitude is key but I’d be lying if I said I am able to do that. I am a negative Nancy. I’m stuck. And I’m too tired to get unstuck. So then that leaves me feeling flat out miserable.
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can most definitely relate to this.
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Are you still in it or how did you break free from it?
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it’s a constant process for me. i go through spurts of good and bad… just trying to take it one day at a time.
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I agree. I want to hide most days, being at home I think makes it worse because it’s easier to fall into a spell than if I were out and distracted.
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I hear ya. It’s a balance of learning how to push yourself but learning how to listen to yourself and just be as well.
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